Back from Sydney, greeted with the hot and humid weather, my body reacted in an unpleasant way.
Filled with more passion and confidence only to be shaken by a worrying spirit of mine.
Pressured with the coming semester, my brain isn't willing to cooperate.
I could only rely on the One who truly understands me.
Thousands are hidden and only a few are displayed, only you O Lord who sees what's hidden.
Anxious about my purpose I have weakened my spirit.
All I wanna do is to serve, but am I good enough to be used?
Failures is what I have, yet I never strive to be better.
Don't pass me by, don't let me go O Lord.
For only You could strengthen my faltering knees.
Capture these thoughts and renew my mind.
Give me confidence O Lord, to face this life.
For in you alone I put my trust and hope.
In my heart You are enthrone in the highest place.
No one else could ever replace You.
Not even the mortal whom I hold dearest to my heart.
For all I am is Yours.
I didn't ask You to erase the memories only the feelings.
For every single heartbeat belongs to You alone.
O Lord that You will crush me, break me, destroy me, undo me.
I rather be a piece of metal that only obeys You.
Yet Your unfailing love melts the solid iron and now I am a treasured clay.
Clay that worths more than silver and gold in Your eyes.
Help me to see that O Lord whenever these eyes lose focus on something else.
Restore me even as I humbled myself in Your presence.
There is no one else for me but You O Lord.
This is the cry of my heart.
Pain is all I am feeling but what is it compares to Yours on that cross.
But I know You understand because You felt it, too.
And that is what makes You my God, my only One.